i hate the way ..................

I hate the way you make me cry I hate the way you make me smile I hate the way you look at me I really hate the way you smile I hate the way you like to be quiet I hate the way you talked to me I hate the way you held my hand I hate the way you promised me your heart I hate the way you left and took your heart and mine as well I hate the way I make you cry I hate the way I make you smile I hate the way I look at you I hate the way you smile I hate the way I keep you quiet I hate the way I talked to you I hate the way I held your hand I hate the way I promised you my heart I hate the way I pushed you away I really hate the way I LOVE YOU so much i really really really Hate the way I LOVE YOU

Am I Jealous..???

I have feelings for you its true
Though we both agree
They will never be love

We travel our separate paths
Meeting when we feel a need
So why does your seeking of others
Create this confusion in me
Am I jealous

This relationship has no ground rules
That can be applied in our situation
We don't have a need for trust
Who you see when its not me
Should not bother me
But it does
Am I jealous

Maybe its not jealousy
But more the feeling of impending loss
For soon you will find someone
And then you wont need me again
Someone new will hold you tight
And our paths will no longer cross. 

love someone who love you is the best way...

i'm bored

  I'm bored to death
Can that be even true
Well, I am still alive
I need something to do

I gotta find some intrest
But I don't know what
I can't think of anything
My mind's door is shut 

16th august 2000 - feeling so lost

Feeling so lost and all alone
I want to bury all the memories
Leave no trace that you ever existed
Maybe then I could sleep at night
Maybe then my eyes will be free…
From all the tears
Don’t want to have to drag this pain with me
Everywhere I go …
I want to be normal again
But everywhere I look is a reminder of you
Of us, of everything we shared.
Why can’t I let you go?
Let your spirit rein
Why cant I smile in reminisce
The scar is too deep
And the emptiness makes me cold
I to feel like I have gone…
Into another world
A world where happiness
Is an obstacle
Laughter a challenge
And complete is almost impossible…
If only I could go on without the thought of you…
Maybe then ill feel what peace is like again!

I always fall for the wrong guy , and keep getting heart broken in the end...

Here I go doing the same mistake...
What’s happening to me for god sake...
It’s so worthless, falling in love again..,
With a person I just met then...
Trying to convince my self that it’s just a flare
For sure not, it’s something I totally can’t bare...
Why him out of all men??
He always makes me laugh and blush,
Uhh!!  get over it girl its just a crush...
Friends told me not to fall,
It’s nothing but a wakeup call
He made me love him so deep
Its a good memory I will always keep..
We're two different climates, no chemistry at all
He doesn’t even answer any of phone calls
No more weakening in the legs when I see you
Backing off is something am planning to do!
You have a life and career to look up to girl...!!
Don’t let this flare give it away..
"It’s a priceless piece of an advice


He didn’t love me as much as I did...so am backing off with my pride.....head up high..

grieving with someone close....

excited sgt blik mitec... blik sini dg azam yg baru..

ni dok pening pk nak add subject.. smpi2 jea mitec ari ahad ari tu mai trus dtg bilik melepaskan rindu dia kat aku

dia x tau aku pown rindu kat dia,amira, fify,edy, aiesah dan ramai lagi..

bila dok mlm2 ni nak update blog x tau kenapa aku jd rindu kat seorg kawan aku ni.. kami dlu rapat..

masa dah lama berlalu dia pown dah x perlukan aku dalam hidup dia.. aku harap dia bahagia dgn idup baru dia..

walau ape pown aku sentiasa igt kenangan manis aku dgn dia.. kami x bergaduh tapi aku yg membawa diri.. 

aku rasa aku yg buat dia hidup dalam kepura-puraan.... kesian kat dia  terpaksa berlakon utk terima aku sebagai kwn padahal dia x lh nak terima aku...

seriously mmg rindu saat berkwn baik dgn dia... 

kadang2 bila teringgat kat kwn lama ni aku menangis sendirian byk sgt kenangan yg kami lalui sesme....

walapun kite dah x berkwn akak doakan awk sentiasa gembira & bahagia disisi org yg berada di sekeliling awk...*****!....